Journal of My Mind

Hi, blogger. Currently, I feel very tired. Too much to think, too much to handle. I don’t think I was like this when I was in 9^th grade. Things seems so complicated right now. I just finished my Aikido Exam, I wish I pass. I just finished my mid-test. Now, I have to study for AS Level Examination (tomorrow is Chemistry Paper 2!). The entrance exam for college will be held on March 2010 (for University of Indonesia). And I study from 6.30 am until 9.00 pm every school day. It’s insane.

What I need right now is a holiday. Seriously. I am starting miss my last holiday. It’s very short (only 2 days) but at least I really enjoyed it.

I went to Bandung last Lebaran Holiday wth my brother, my brother’s friend, and my brother’s friend’s sister. Actually, I went there to help my brother moved from Bandung back to Jakarta. But, ended up having a good holiday. Thank you so much, my brother. Now, when he is far away in Surabaya, I am kinda miss him.

Usually Jakarta-Bandung is approximately 2 hours. But, my brother drove so fast that we arrived at Bandung at 7.30 am (it was 6.00 am from Jakarta; only one and a half hour!). Then, we went to my brother’s place to take a little rest. After that, we went to PVJ (Paris Van Java) Bandung. It’s a good place. We took a look a pet shop and seeing the cats reminded me of Boy, used to be my cat. And we went to Daiso.

Having lunch at Gokkana Ramen at Ciwalk Bandung. After years I’ve been to Bandung, finally I went to Ciwalk! It’s good. I was so terrified when we went to a pet shop and I saw a big snake on the window. I have phobia of snake.

Then, we went shopping! I got a cool black cardigan and shawl. We went to factory outlet. Then went back to my brother’s place in the evening before went to Sierra Restaurant for dinner. The view was great because the restaurant itself is on the hill. It was beautiful at night, but it was really cold.

So now, having tired everyday, I wish I have a holiday. Just one day would be enough for me. I really look forward to weekend because only in weekend I can rest fully.

Okay then, I’ll post another post as soon as possible. Please wish me luck for tomorrow exam. I spent almost 10 hours today for studying chemistry. I hope it worth it. Bye bye and see ya’!

First of all, I want to say Happy Birthday again for my friend : Bivisyani Questibrillia for turning 17! =) And thank you for having a creative birthday theme (read: halloween) so we all can dressed up halloween-ish hehe..

I dressed up as a wizard hahaha.. but I didn’t have a witch hat so, I just wearing coat and holding a wand =) My friend just announced the dress code about a couple days ago so I didn’t have time to get a more creative costume. Like I said, it’s been 12 years for me since the last time I celebrated Halloween.

12 years ago, I still remember it very clearly, October 1997, me and my brother dressed up for halloween. My brother even made the lantern pumpkin. Then, with my brother wearing a mask and I wore Princess Jasmine costume, we went door to door in our small apartment and said , “Trick or treat!”

We got a lot of candies. I love it. But, we got into a small fight when my brother wanted to keep most of the candies for himself. Hahaha. When I went to the school, I also wore the costume and everybody at class wearing different costume. It was fun.

I tweet some of my halloween memories on twitter. I just did.

mayaandhilda : the children got up as their dad came in to their small apartment. their dad brought something for them. to cheer them up on that Halloween.

mayaandhilda : the little girl opened her present first that her brother. her smile was on her face when she held that small snow globe.

mayaandhilda : inside the snow globe there was a teddy bear as a witch with orange snow flakes. she shaked it and her smile became wider.

mayaandhilda : up until now, that little girl always loves Halloween and every year she hopes that her dad would come home with a snow globe again for her.

That little girl was me. I still remember when my dad gave me the snow globe. It was pretty. One for me with a witch teddy bear inside it and one for my brother with a ghost inside it. I still have it now. Sometimes, I shake it and watch the flakes fell flawlessly.

This is one of my favourite photo. Wizard vs screamo. My friend cannot even took the photo properly because she wanted to laugh so bad, that she’s shaken the camera a bit, that’s why the photo is kinda blur.

Halloween actually is not Indonesian thing. We don’t celebrate halloween naturally. But I love Halloween that I got excited when my friend told me she gonna have a birthday party with halloween theme. It’s creative. But, yesterday I didn’t do any make up. Maybe I should have put some horror or gothic make up. But, I don’t have the make up kit and well, I am not really good at using make up. I wish I learn how.

Okay then, I am going to sleep now. As I promised yesterday, I post a report of my Halloween Day =)

I was kinda exhausted, I had Aikido Exam and it was so exhausting. And I wish I can pass. Yesterday, my dad forgot the way to get to my brother’s girlfriend’s house, so we lost our way and got home at 11 pm. I was so tired but this morning I have to wake up early so I can go to BSD for my exam. So now, I am going to take a rest.

Thank you for reading my post.

Bye bye and see ya’!

Hi, Happy Halloween!

I cannot write a long post today, I am sorry. But, I am gonna report my Halloween Day as soon as possible, I promise.

The thing is, I love Halloween and this year might be my first year celebrating it after 12 years. So, everybody, please enjoy your Halloween Day!

Bye bye and see ya’!

ps. why oh why my aikido exam must be tomorrow? I mean, the day after Halloween? Well, wish me luck for tomorrow guys!

Hi, blogger. I got a lot of exams right now. School Exams Week, Aikido, AS Level, and upcoming School Semester Test. My brother just graduated from ITB last Saturday with suma cum laude predicate. And now he’s off to Surabaya for work. Thinking of that, I am going to college in less a year. And I still confused for what I am gonna be.

I think, the old us are who we really are. When we were child, as I already told you before, chose our dream without thinking twice. We chose our dream because we like it. Purely. Not because it’ll guarantee us a good job, high social status or big salary. And that’s why, every time I ask myself who I really am, I’ll remember who the old me was.

Since I was in Pittsburgh, I liked science. Maybe it was influenced by my brother. I got a lot of books of science. Three sets of series of encyclopedia, four books of science experiement and one medical book. Nobody in my family is a doctor. But when I was in elementary, I wanted to be a doctor so badly that I read that thick book. It’s really thick and heavy. And then, I changed my dream from a doctor to be an astronomer. Not like my classmate who wants to be an astronaut, I prefer to be an astronomer who study about stars, planet and galaxies only.

Because of my dream to be an astronomer, I read lots of books and encyclopedia about astronomy. Even though I read the same all over and over again (about the sun, the planets, the galaxies), I didn’t get tired of it. I wanted to have my own telescope, but until now, I never get one. I’d thought once to built it, but I didn’t know how to do and no one in my family interested in astronomy like me. Until now, I still like reading about astronomy and medical. The medical book I have in my room right now, explained a lot of how to help people from suffering disease with common symptoms. And in my spare time, I like reading it over and over again.

Then, I changed my dream to be a scientist. That time, I didn’t really understand what scientists do. In my mind, I always think about people wearing lab coat in the laboratory (in the basement) with all chemical tube in front of them and discovery something incredible. My science grade were good. I can say that since I was a very little, first knowledge I know was about science. Really. And when I was in Pittsburgh, I always amazed with all those experiment. Science experiment. My life is so close with science.

In middle school, I started learning science in more advanced and I was disappointed of how Indonesian Education is all about theories. I just can’t get it if only reading it through book that the book itself was not interesting at all. No full color and somehow contains text text and text. And formulas. It’s not interesting at all. The classes are not appealing. And suddenly, Physics became a subject that I don’t like the most. I cannot help it. How can I understand it if I can’t see all those stuffs they explained in that textbook? It continues until now. In middle school, since first year, I am into science class. I don’t even study about social studies at all except history. And it’s not world history by the way.

Now, I am very confused. I think I am going to take social studies such as literature or design. Something that would never involved science anymore. When I saw the social studies past paper, I felt something strange. I felt sad that I won’t learn science anymore (well, I’ll be very glad to not learning Physics =p). Science’s been my thing for a long time. Deep down down inside my heart, I still want to study about medical or astronomy or chemistry. But, I cannot think what’s the best for myself.

Astronomy, medical, science -> they all are my things. They all are like my old friends from the old me. And it’s so sad to say goodbye to them. If only I can have more than one job. But I know at the end, I have to choose one. But, if I am going to take science major in college, I probably want to go overseas. Here, the apparatus doesn’t good as in another country.What do you think, readers? In your opinion, what should I take?

And about that telescope, I really want to get one before I go to college. Last December, I tried to make my father bought me a telescope in Singapore, but I failed.

Okay then, I have to have dinner right now. My mom just start yelling at me to stop blogging. Thanks for reading anyway.

Bye bye and see ya’!

Okay, this is the last post before I go to sleep (really). Today, this is my bento menu. Sandwhich (bread with cheese, smoked beef, cucumbar and egg. It’s pretty plain, but I add french fries and sausage-rolls. I think the best part making my bento for school so far is when I arrange the foods into my bento box.

I use some cute food picks to make the bento looks delicious and fun to eat.  And this is what I ate for lunch today:

sandwhich for lunch =9

Okay, I got really tired now. I think I’m really going to sleep now. And poor me, I still cannot find the way to change the font on this new designed blog. Please, for any of blog.com user, tell me how to do it =)

My mom said my lunch looks like a kindergarten lunch. But I don’t think that way. Maybe it is, but as long as enjoy it and it can make me become more creative, I don’t really care what people saying. It doesn’t mean I’m rebellious or something :p

Okay then, I have to go. By the way, have you follow my twitter? If you want to, please follow me on http://twitter.com/mayaandhilda, see you everybody and goodnight!

Hi, blogger! Actually, this was my second bento I made for lunch. I made this like last Monday which is yesterday. Actually it’s pretty simple and looked like the previous one. But, there are more color because I put sausages too. Wow, I starting  feel like this is a cooking blog haha.. Don’t worry, I’ll definitely post another topic other than cooking!

pretty much like the first one but I love it though

It’s fun! Don’t you wanna try to make it? I know I’m still far from professional, but I want to learn more! Have you googled the word Bento? What don you think? They’re amazing right?

Even though I’m not that concern about the nutrition (for me, as long as it healthy and makes me want to eat it, any kind of home-made food is okay), I always try to put vegetables on my bento menu. Something like broccoli is enough for me. Sometimes I add apple too. Maybe you’re wondering, is this enough for my lunch? At first, I thought it won’t be, and I’ll get hungry after an hour eating them. But, somehow, amazingly, I feel full for almost the rest of the school time. Maybe because I eat the bento with vegetables and fruits too? I don’t really know hehe..

By the way, somehow I cannot find how to change the font. It changed so I cannot find the button. I’ll edit all my new posts once I found it =)

Okay then, byee.. I think I’m gonna post what I make today which is sandwhich

Hi, blogger! Maybe you already notice that I like to get a new hobby. And my hobby for this month is.. cooking for my lunch box! In Japan, it is called Bento. So, from now, everytime I post a post about my Bento, it’ll named under the title ‘Maya no Bento’ which is mean ‘Maya’s Bento’.

Actually, I was inspired by Japanese Mom who always make a bento every morning for their children to be eaten at lunch. And they are so creative. Please go to Google and search with the keyword ‘Bento’. You’ll amazed with how creative they are! Just believe me. So, as a beginner, I made this for school last week.

my first bento

I was in hurry when I bring this bento. I actually planned to bring rice, but all I found in the kitchen was fried rice. So, here it was. What do you think? In Japan, they also concern about the nutrition when they make the bento (amazed me :D) and they make it as appealing as ever so their kids want to eat them instead of buying food. I like this idea pretty much. I still learning how to make cuter bento now. It’s definitely my new hobby! =)

Gotta sleep, it’s already late here. See ya’ and bye bye!

Hi, blogger! I know, I haven’t posted any post for almost one and a half month! I am sorry about that, I know I’ve been a horrible blogger recently. So, today is Batik Day in Indonesia. Do you know Batik? Have you ever seen or wear one? It’s Indonesian traditional fabric. You can google it =)

Actually my school doesn’t have the batik uniform, only white shirt and gray skirt uniform (for high school). In junior high and elementary school, I had batik uniform that had to wear every Thursday. And, today, because it’s Batik Day, the school allows us to wear our own batik! I am so excited since I like batik and do not think that batik is an old-fashion or something. It is so nice to see everyone came to school with different shirt but still wear the same gray skirt/trousers.

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Then, after school, while waiting for my Biology tutorial, I went to Senayan City to attending pre-open origami exhibition. The origami are so beautiful. I wish I can attend the workshop =)

batik meets japan

By the way, while wearing my batik, I just realised that the batik I wear is the same like the one I wore in Japan. And suddenly, all the memories in Japan last summer came back to me. I miss a lot of things about Japan.

1. I miss being on time. How organize they were. Their high respect of time.

2. How people always says ‘Ohayou Gozaimasu!’ every morning to everybody.

3. I miss Kagawa so much. The scenery, the scent, the people, my host family, the shrine, the high school.

4. Seeing a lot of people riding bicycle. It’s rare here!

5. The food, especially Sanuki Udon. I will never forget the taste.

It’s a lot that I cannot remember it all. I really wish I can come back to Japan. In the mean time, I’ll try my hard to study Japanese so I can speak to people when I am in Japan. Okay then, I think I’ll post this one first. I’m going to post another post as soon as possible. Oh, and I’m going to have my AS Level Examination. Wish me luck! Thank you very much..

See ya’ and bye bye..