Journal of My Mind

Okay, enough for the me-being-sick story. Let’s talk about something else.

Today’s weather is nice. The sky is clear and blue. Very lovely. It’s been awhile because now in Jakarta is always raining almost everyday. I like raining because I like the wet roads after rain. But I like seeing clear sky more. It makes me relax. And I used to play with the clouds when I was a little. It doesn’t mean I played clouds with my hands, of course. But, you know, when you were a little, you can play imagination with clouds, right? That’s the reason why I love sky. We can imagine anything and see it happens when we see clouds moving around.

When I was ill, few days ago, I was thinking back to the past. My past. My childhood. I’ve told you before, right? On my first post. I’ve ever lived in Pittsburgh, PA, USA. I was there when I was 2 until 5 and a half (1994-1998). And my first memory is when I was already there. In my apartment which was in front of Carnegie Museum Of Art Pittsburgh. Small apartment though, but honestly, I think it was very comfortable. Even more comfortable than my own house now in Indonesia. I like living there.

I was a premature baby. I supposed to born on September ‘92, but I was born on June ‘92. When I was 2, I still can’t speak except said “Mammmaaa…”. And suddenly a great news come. My father got a scholarship to continue his PhD degree at Pittsburgh University so we all go to Pittsburgh. Really cool. I can speak perfectly when I was in Pittsburgh. And my first language was English, not Indonesian. It was simply because I was really loved to watch Nickelodeon so much. I watched Rugratz, Hey Arnold!, etc. I miss those cartoons now.

A lot of things happened when I was there. I still remembered most of them. On summer, we went a lot of cities, a lot of photos and I can’t remember all of them. But the place that I remembered the most is Florida because there were DisneyWorld and NASA. I went to Daytona Beach, the best beach in the world, I think. Around Pittsburgh, places that I won’t forget. Simply, first of all is my apartment. There was a lot of memories there.

Second one is my kindergarten, Greenfield Elementary School. I love that school. My classroom was nice. We had a lot of interesting activities there. I remembered when we were cooking together, watching movies together and celebrating Halloween together. I had a bestfriend. She’s not American too, like me. She’s nice and beautiful. I really hate the fact that now I forgot her name so I can’t find her at Facebook!

We’ve ever had a little fight someday and she mad at me. I remember I tried to run after her to apologize. I just don’t believe that now it’s already 11 years ago. Time is flying too fast until I don’t realize that it has been 11 years. I had an imaginary friend too, called Sam. I’m sad that now I can’t see him again.

The third one is Carnegie Museum. I love museum. And Carnegie Museum was in front of my apartment so I’d been there often. And I still love the Disney Shop at one of the Pittsburgh Malls. It was my favorite. I love Disney, even when I was still a little. Until now.

I loved parks in Pittsburgh. That’s why, when I came back to Indonesia with no memories of Indonesia at all, I felt very disoppointed when I see no parks and nice museum here.

I want to post more photos of mine. But the scanner in my home is kinda broken, so I can’t. My photo in this post is just my photo with my brother. The others are from the internet. Maybe someday I can post some of my photos here. Oh ya, when I went to Gettysburg Museum, I was so scared. I thought, “How come my family agreed to become one of them?”  Them. The statues were so scary. I though my family were going to be statues and I was freaking out! Hahaha.. It was funny when I remembered it now. Silly me.

More memories come to my mind when I type this post. I just miss the place which I’ve lived before. I feel that Pittsburgh is my home. Really. That’s why I really want to come back there. Even once before I die. I’ve fallen love so deeply with Pittsburgh. I have decided that I want to get a scholarship for my bachelor degree and study abroad to USA and if it possible, apply to Pittsburgh University. It was a nice place, nice campus too. I promised to myself to do my best at school so I can go to Pittsburgh. But I really sad that the fact USA is so strict with Muslim Country like Indonesia. It makes my dream more difficult to chase.

Can I come back to Pittsburgh someday? I really wanna know.

So, I through this weekend by worrying and worrying. It was very annoying, you know. Worrying about something that haven’t happens yet. But when this week started, suddenly I got a feeling that everything would be all right. And it was true. We have just decided the song to perform for my music class by Monday while the test day would be Tuesday and we still had not gotten the music sheet for the piano yet. It was driving me crazy. I was the vocalist so I try my best to find the music sheet from the internet but I found nothing. So I try to find the notes by myself with my piano. My other friend in the same group helped me too.

Fortunately, the guitarist has already remembered all her parts and the one who played the bass was really good with playing bass (because I heard he had already in a band before) and the drummer was as good as the one who played the bass. So everything was fine but the problem was the pianist haven’t practiced the song at all, because last night, the electricity on her house was off.

I felt like it was a nightmare. I panicked. But when the test time coming, I tried my best. Oh yeah, we performed “I Miss You” by Miley Cyrus, by the way. Even though I already knew I don’t have a really amazing voice, but I tried my best to master the song. And unconsciously, I enjoyed it.

The second thing that surprised me this weekend was the fact that I got accepted at Kyungsung University even though I was really sure that  would not accepted there. It made me happy, though. But I still confused whether I should take the 40% scholarship or not.

And the last thing was happening today. I did well on my latest Biology Test and I got the highest score! I mean, I know for you guys you would think like, ‘What so special about it, then?’ But in fact, it means a lot for me. It has been really hard to get a good grade in class and I am so happy that I can get the highest score in class!

I’ve never expected one of those surprising things. What can I learn from this week that I shouldn’t worry too much because it’s waste my time. My problems was solved by the time. And I was really enjoying my music lesson.
 

Since I was 8, I like to write stories. In the beginning, I like to write fairy tale stories, but afterward I started enjoying write a casual story. I’ve tried make some novels but none of them has finished. Hahahaa. I wanna be a novelist or a movie maker because I like read novels, write stories and watch movies.

I like Japanese stuff. Guess I like their culture. I hope someday I could go to Japan too. It would be an interesting experience. Actually, I love learning new cultures. I already tried learning Japanese and it was interesting! But I haven’t continue it because of my study. I’ve already learned Hiragana, Katakana and several Kanji. I wanna be able speak Spanish, Italian, Germany, Korean and Mandarin. Lots of languages, huh? Hahaha..

And then.. hmm, what else should I say about myself?

Well, as the title, this blog will be a jornal of my mind. I will post my thought about everything. Maybe I will do some review and telling my experience. So, thank you very much you have read my first post. I hope you will come back again to see my other posts. See ya’!