Journal of My Mind

So, last night, I turned off my electricity in my house at 8.30 pm. My brother just came home from Bandung and he helped me making the video. Yup, I made a documentary for last night event. I’m planning to upload it here, but I can’t upload it to my own computer since I don’t have the firewire cable to connect the handycam to computer. I’ll find one later

I really really support Earth Hour 2009. Not because it’s kinda a cool thing to do right now. I mean, it is a cool thing to do. But, I purely want to save this planet. I still want my grand grand grand daughter alive when I die. So, last night, for 60 minutes, my family gathering in the dark. My brother even had dinner in dark hahaha.. But, once again, I like it. I’m gonna sign up for WWF again (last year, I signed up for a year).

Oh yeah, I have edited the video clip I was talking about on my last post. I edited it with my cousin ’till 2 am in the morning and I have school at 6.30 am. But, fortunately, the video was quite nice. Even though it’s not perfect, but I satisfied with my team work Good job, everybody! My brother watched the video clip in my iPod and he laughed so hard. You made me embarrassed with myself, bro!

I’m trying to upload the video clip, but failed for some reason. I am gonna upload it together with my video about Earth Hour 2009 in Youtube. But, I have to find a firewire cable first =(
I tried to find one in Ace Hardware but too bad they don’t have one. Maybe I should find at other stores. But, overall, making video is so much fun. As fun as blogging, I think. And now, I starting learning photography. Maybe on 21-25 April 2009, I’m gonna go to Sudirman (the central spot of Jakarta) and take a lot of pictures there. I want to practice my photography skills.

I think, in this new year (2009) I some new hobbies. Usually, if I have to fill in an application, I will say my hobbies are reading novels, watching movies, writing stories. Now, I’m gonna add : making video, photography, aikido, blogging and traveling (can’t wait summer 2009!). Learning something new is always interesting. I can’t wait to learn something new!

Well then, I have to go right now. A lot of things to do today. Wish me luck finding a firewire cable so I can connect my handycam to my computer, edit the video and the upload it in Youtube and here. I have an account in Youtube but I haven’t posted any video yet. Check it out when I already post videos there! =)

Bye bye and see ya’!

The song is Seperti Yang Kau Minta (Just As You Wish) by Chrisye. The story is about a little girl who always compared with her big brother by her step-parents (the girl moved to the house after adopted by the parents). Her big brother is so perfect, etc. We already done some scenes 2 weeks ago, so we have to finish shooting the rest scenes this week because the deadline is almost come.

It was fun! I can say it’s my first experience to make a short movie/video klip and I think movie is where my heart is. I just love making this assignment! Although it’s kinda tiring when shooting all the scenes. And we didn’t just shoot the scenes inside my house, but we go to the street too in the night since the little adopted girl escaped from home. People starring at us while we recorded the scenes. I have to run when I escaped from home, and the rest of the casts too.

There was a scene where I have to fainted in the street. I think it’s the best scene because when I was a little, I always wondering how it feels fainted in the street. Hahahaha. My feet scratched a little beacuse I fainted in an asphalt road but it was cool. Finally, all of us came back to my house and we’re all exhausted. And we shooted the last scene (I don’t know if it was the ending or we shoot the real ending from te scenario today) before we all go home (except me, of course! Hahaha). We took several photos for the cover of the video clip.

The boys played Guitar Hero in my brother’s room until 11 p.m. And then, all of my friends went home. It was fun, like I said. I am so enjoying the process last night. And it makes me realized. I know what I want to do. I want to be a director or a movie crew. And I don’t want to give up on my dream! I want to fight since I really love making video. I planned to make a documentary movie, and I want to make another short movie! =)

Oh, I gotta go. Aikido waiting for me. Hahaha.. thanks for reading my post. See ya’!

So, maybe some of you wondering, where have I been. I can say that lots of things happen and it makes me feel depressed for no reason at all. Really. Maybe the most frustrating thing that made me down for week is because my grade is falling (is that the right word to say it?) and.. I feel soo depressed.

When I feel like I am good at Biology, my teacher returned our last quiz paper and I found out that I got 72 and.. it’s not good enough for me because the highest score is 91. And I was down (I am not kidding), and yesterday, my Bahasa Indonesia test and I thought I did it well (since it is one of my favorite subjects). But then, my teacher told me that I got a low score. It is frustrating, you know. You got a low score on your favorite subjects.

But I found a very interesting quote.

“Today is not a good day to give up” - Gogirl Magazine, March 2009 (I don’t the original sources)

Whenever I read or speak it out loud, I feel like I have a new hope. I like the quote. My another favorite quote is this one:

“Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen” - Ralph Waldo Emerson

By the way, I am going to take the AS Level Examination May/June 2009 on Physics. I think I already said that, right? And.. well, I want to be more like myself. Lately, I feel like I don’t be myself. I don’t know why. I am laughing but inside I don’t really want to laugh. I am smiling but actually I am the one who force myself to keep smiling. So, I wanna be myself.

Oh yeah, lately I watch Nickelodeon and.. it is so nostalgic! I miss a lot of their old shows such as Rugrats, Family Shows (I forgot the name, but it’s a adventurous game), Blue’s Clues, etc. And I uploaded a lot of my childhood photos on Facebook. The photos when I was in USA. I think I miss my childhood more than before.

Hmm.. what else to share, ya?  

You know what, suddenly I forgot all the things I want to write here. It’s weird T_T. Maybe next time, if I remember, I’ll try to write it down

Thanks for reading my blog and see ya’!

So, the thing that I am really sure is I am going to take AS Level Physics on this May/June 2009. I know I take a risk by entering the examination since I am not really good at Physics (but somehow, my teacher recommended me to take AS Level Physics on this May/June) so, I think I want to challenge myself. At least I have to got an E to pass the exam. Well, I think I should be more focus from now and start studying harder on Physics since it the only subject that I really not good at (maybe beside Math?).

And, I am going to sing again for my music class. It just because I don’t play instrument well. So, I’ll sing ‘First Love - Nikka Costa’ this Tuesday while my best friend will play the piano. I don’t know the reason, but I feel a little bit depressed this week.  I just feel sad all day and my mind just keep daydreaming. Like having a blue mind. My mother says I talked when I slept last night, but my mother didn’t really know what I was talking about because she said I was talking in English. I wonder what’s wrong with me.

I am sorry, but maybe I won’t post anything for a while. I have to settle down my mind first. I just feel lost right now. Maybe I need some break? But, I promise, once I feel better, I’ll post new posts. So keep reading my blog Thank you.